Blog Post

Date posted: April 14th, 2026

Things have been better. Although I have not gotten over my grief of dying dreams, I have positioned myself to support myself, my family, and my interests. There are some major updates that I want to cover.

I quit my job at Audi. I was supposed to transition to a full-time role by February, but there were major delays because my manager went to Germany and HR was awfully slow. Furthermore, I wanted to work on something more fulfilling. My imminent role would put me in integration and development, which wasn't exactly what I was envisioning. Lastly, the compensation wasn't enough to support my family. Indeed, it is the “hard engineering” that I should've done in my undergrad where I'm designing autonomous vehicles and stuff, but it wasn't my cup of tea anyway. Thankfully, I received an offer from a stealth startup working on more research sided things. I can not disclose any information, but the work is definitely more interesting and aligns with my goals.

I finalized my manuscript on Nesterov's accelerated gradient descent and posted it on arXiv. The ideas are a bit rough and rudimentary, but everything came out of my own head, so that's fine. I remember coming up with this analysis in September 2024 while sitting around in a cafe in Korea. I have no idea if it is original or not, but it was definitely a useful method. I spent my entire vacation working on this. My professor didn't find it particularly interesting, which was exactly when I lost my interest. Thankfully, working at a SWE job and rotting my brain encouraged my to revisit old passions. I received an email shortly after from a German chess grandmaster regarding further research directions on essential equilibriums. Unfortunately, this man doesn't know that I am not the biggest bird.

 

With regards to social life and recreation, I finally obtained the Advanced Lv. 10 title in Pump it Up Phoenix! Now I have to play ~80 level 23s to get the Expert Lv. 1 title. It will be another long journey. On top of that, I have successfully recruited more people to play this stupid rhythm game with me.

I started going to a run club every Wednesday to stay active and meet new people. I've been running an  8 minute pace 5k each time, and it gets easier every time I do it.

Also I've been volunteering for my old swim coach. For now, I'm just a timer, but I'm beginning training to become a swim official. I am looking to stay at home and help out my parents in the long term, so I might as well settle down here.

One thing I do miss is teaching. I'm going to see how I can get back into that again.